Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Seasoning Greetings... Bon Appetite

Merry Christmas...
Because I can't be there to share the Christmas Season with you all, I thought I would share a few of my favorite holiday recipes.  

Easy Salsa

2 bunches of green onions chopped
1 bunch of cilantro
2 4 oz cans of green chiles (diced and roasted... I like Ortega best)
1 28 oz Whole Peeled Tomatoes
Throw all the greens into the food processor (blenders work too but you need to use the tomato liquid from the can to make it blend better)  and blend up (It breaks up the onion so it won't chunky- )  
Here is where it might very to taste.  
You can add another can of tomatoes if you like it tomatoey
If you think you know how spicy you want it, add the jalepenos now and blend.  If you're worried about it being too spicy, add the jalepenos a little at a time after the tomato goes in.
Add the tomatoes and blend it all up (don't over blend once the tomato goes in).  
The more jalepeno the spicier the salsa.  
You can use chipotle chiles instead of or along with the jalepenos to give it a smoky flavor.  Use a few spoonfuls of the sauce (adobo sauce) it is yum! One or two chipotle peppers will do you unless you are like my mom- woman with iron tongue.  
Another variation is to add lime juice.  
Last week I added pomegranite and it was really tasty... a little sweet with the spicy.  
I don't salt it, but you can.  
Final touch it to chop a few roma tomatoes and add it and give it one final blend.  The fresh tomato will liven up the taste and makes it look like it was more work than it really is.  
Enjoy...
Add it to smashed avocado (salted) to make guacamole (ol-e)

Another recipe is a Chile con Queso dip

4 tblspooons butter
1/4 cup of flour
1 can of chicken broth
4 cups of cheese (a yellow cheese works best)
Salsa
Melt the butter in a saucepan.  Add the flour to make a rue (is that how you spell it?).  Stir over the heat for about a minute to heat the flour through (it should look pasty, if not, add more flour).  Add the chicken broth.  Bring to a boil.  It should be slightly thick like a gravy.  Add the cheese and stir until melted.  Add salsa to your liking.  
Serve in a fondue dish to keep warm and melty.  

I don't know what you would call the bread, I use it for Bruschetta and you can use it to make croutons also.  

Loaf of bread (sourdough or french pre cut is easier)
1 stick of butter
garlic powder
parmesan cheese
parsley
Melt butter and add garlic powder to taste, about 1/2 cup of parmesan cheese palm full of parsley and mix together.  Slice bread into cracker size pieces (not to thick) or to bite size pieces for croutons.  Dip one side of each piece of bread to get it slightly wet.  Spread it out on a cookie tin.  Bake at 350 for 15 minutes or so, you know it is ready when it is golden brown.  Let cool.  Sprinkle more parmesan cheese if desired.  Once it is cool, it should be crusty.  
If you are making croutons, it is probably easier to add the bread into a plastic bag and pour some of the butter mixture in and shake it up.  The bread should be moist but not too wet.  Spread it out on the pan and bake like the bread.  Croutons need to be a little crustier so you might want to keep them in the oven a little bit longer.  Keeping them in a lower temperature oven for a longer amount of time will make it crustier.  

The butter mixture is also good for garlic bread.  Just use softened butter instead of melted butter and spread it on bread and bake.  

Hint, don't use garlic salt... when you mix it with the butter (which is salted) and the parmesan cheese which is salty, it makes your bread too salty.  

Friday, December 19, 2008

Thanks for 2008


Dear Jesus,
It is the end of another year (who can believe that it has been 45 that I have spent on this earth). I am so thankful for all that You have done in our lives. The last several years have been so hard in so many ways. You have provided a plethora of trials and You have walked through them with us. It was such a huge blessing to walk through a year that was so much... (dare I say) easier .
Thanks Lord that I went through the end of one school year and into the next year knowing ahead of time that I would have a job. Thanks for the summer, enjoying to travel with my mom and to visit AZ... that was only possible because of the blessing of having a job. Thanks too Lord that I was able to teach the same grade two years in a row- and even got to stay in the same classroom.
In the 10 years of teaching, I have learned so many things about myself and You have been faithful to teach me how to love my students more- better- and how to be a better teacher. I am thankful that everyday I get to come to work and love what I do. I am thankful that You entrust me with these little lives and I try hard not to take that for granted. I am thankful too that you have provided opportunities here at work to share what things You have taught me with my co-workers. Lord, I am blessed beyond abudance through my job.
2008 also provided Osmel an opportunity to visit his family. He returned to Cuba in February for the first time since he left Cuba back in 2004. He was blessed to be with his family again. It was clear that it was a gift from You Lord for you brought all the details together. It is an extra blesing that Osmel is going to return to Cuba for the New Year. That is the big holiday in Cuba and he is quite excited to be spending the time together with his family. We will miss being together, but I know that his family will be blessed to spend that special holiday with him.
Lord, I am thankful that you have allowed me to spend another year with those that I love. This year I have learned so much about how You sustain us through loss. With the loss of two sweet friends (Donna and Peggy) I have a deeper appreciation and gratitude for every day that I am blessed to be with those that I love. Even recently, with the tragic and sudden death of Wendy's daughter, and the loss of Michon's baby, I have been struck with a deep (and hidden) emotion that I don't really understand. I know that in time, You are going to reveal to me what it is that You want me to learn and I (cough, cough) look forward to Your sweet hand revealing to me all that You have for me to understand and learn.
Though 2008 has brought many blessings and much relief to this weary traveler, it has brought some things to the surface that I haven't really enjoyed looking at, dealing with, or thinking about. In some ways, it has been a year of denial- but I feel, I know and I sense that Your patient and loving hand is working all things together for my good- That is, the kind of good a dad tells you as he applies the right hand of correct to the seat of learning- "This is for your own good!" Ouch!
I am thankful for the many blessings that this year has brought. I confess that I fear what 2009 has to offer. The bleakness of the budget issues in CA and the likelihood of education cuts fill me with trepidation and I am trying to keep perspective and focus on Your faithfulness.
Lord my biggest prayer is that You would do a work of salvation in the lives of my unsaved family and that they would be the ones that You have been waiting for- and then... RAPTURE!!!!
Come quickly Lord Jesus.
With all my love
Your daughter.

The Very Best Christmas Wishes

This Christmas it is no surprise that I once again didn't get around to sending Christmas cards. At least this year I didn't buy any. I just want to wish all those I love a Merry Christmas and a Blessed and Happy New Year!!
I have so enjoyed spending time staying connected with friends via blogs and facebook- It is nice to just share a little virtual moment. It's the next best thing to being there :)
Love you all

Friday, December 5, 2008

Kindness Counts




I was thinking today about my students, which led me into prayer...


One of the things that I have always had, is a good repoire with my students. I love them, they love me, and that is important to me. This year, I don't feel like I have the same connection I have had to other classes. My prayer, "Lord, help me to love these guys, and help them to know that I do. And Lord, I need wisdom to know how to do, and what to do for them."


So I started thinking about what I need from the Lord... Mercy and Grace. I actually had been talking to my students about Mercy and Grace recently because we were adding the suffix -ful to words and when I came up with merciful they wanted to know what that meant. (Anyway, rabbit trail)


So, make a long story short- I realized that God was speaking to me about my students. "Karen, how do people know that I love them?"- Grace and Mercy. I started to sing that song, "It's Your kindness that leads me to repentance O Lord. Knowing that You love me, no matter what I do, makes me want to love you too..." I need to start showing grace and mercy to my students. That's the goal. Loving my students more, pouring out Grace and Mercy, MORE, showing them that no matter what they do, I will love them.


Wednesday, December 3, 2008

The Tranforming Power of Love

I have a student whose name is Jim.  That's not the real name, but that is what I will call him.  In my mostly hispanic class, Jim is the only student that is caucasion.  Jim struggles with learning.  Jim also struggles with behavior and struggled being kind with his peers.  And to be totally honest, I struggled with Jim.  It was hard to be loving, it was hard to pour out my heart to him, but I saw early on, that he needed attention and praise.  I have met Jim's parents, and it is clear, that Jim is not the priority of his parents.  Jim is working with another teacher, and the two of us decided that we were going to do all we could to transform Jim.  Give him an opportunity to shine.  I have to admit, that it wasn't my idea, but I saw the need and I knew that it could work.  So I decided to love him, to praise him, and to give him some extra touches, extra eye to eye looks, and just a little bit more attention.  Between the other teacher and me, we were praising Jim for every little thing he did.  "Wow Jim, I love the way you hold your pencil."  We also worked very hard to make sure that Jim's parents knew that he was valuable.  That he could do it.  That he was worthwhile.  
I know you know what is coming... Jim changed.  Jim is kinder to his peers.  Jim tries harder to do well in school.  Jim is learning.  Jim is growing.  Jim is being transformed by love.  Who can you transform with God' love?


Monday, December 1, 2008

45 Factoids about me...
Hard to believe, but this year was my 45th year here on Earth...
So, in honor of my 45th, Here are 45 facts about me.
1.  I can never remember what city I was born in.  Anaheim or Orange.
2.  I met my husband 10 years before we got married.
3.  I knew he was the guy for me after spending less than 15 days together.  
4.  I knew I was in love because he was the first boyfriend that I could follow.
5.  My paternal grandparents were Mexicans and my maternal grandparents were Irish.
6.  My eyes are hazel- mostly green and my dad only learned that about me about 5 years ago.
7.  My grandma died about a month before she turned 100.
8.  I am a 3rd generation Anaheim educator.
9.  I am a 4th generation college graduate. 
10.  I love to write.
11.  When I was 16 I read the book I'm Out to Change the World by Ann Kiemel and she changed my life.  I decided I wanted to be like her... (someday I'll finish my book)
12.  I would have loved to pursue a career acting Shakepeare.
13.  I smoked for 10 years.
14.  I started to love studying the Bible when I was in High School.  I was challenged to get to know it better, and I just started to hunger for it.  
15.  I am a Laker's fan, but I have to love them from a distance or they seriously become an idol!
16.  I swam on the Placentia Swim Team (for about a week)... I had to quit due to swimmer's ear.
17.  I was saved at a backyard Bible club when I was 5.  It made sense.  I prayed the prayer many times before I believed it took.  I stopped when I was about 6 or 7 because it was the first time that I prayed it with someone else there to witness it.  
18.  I played on the championship volleyball team when I was in 6th grade.  
19.  I was the biggest tomboy EVER!  Skateboarding was my thing.
20.  I grew up in a Baptist Church.  
21.  I love to sing, but I can't do it well.  
22.  I'm self diagnosed A.D.D...  If you talk to me in a place with too many distractions, I seriously can't pay attention no matter how hard I try.
23.  I didn't really know what it was to walk with Jesus until I was 15. 
24.  I love frogs.
25.  When I was in High school, I didn't have any girlfriends, only male friends.  
26.  My dream job would be to be a detective.  
27.  I am married to a Spanish speaker but I don't speak Spanish very well, therefore, the first year we were married, I didn't talk much to my husband.
28.  My paternal grandpa was/is my hero.  
29.  My brother and I were roommates for awhile while we were in college.  We went to the same college, and worked for the same company.  We thought so much alike we were scary!
30.  It took me more than 10 years to graduate from college.
31.  I wanted to major in art in college but it didn't seem practical, but I took every art class that Fullerton College offered- some more than once. 
32.  I am afraid of heights and small places.  When I see movies that show either, I feel it in the pit of my stomach and I get sweaty palms.  
33.  I get car sick and sea sick. 
34.  I have a terrible memory.
35.  My favorite food is enchiladas.
36.  My drink of choice is Diet Coke.
37.  I am a cop show junkie.
38  I love to cook, but never have time.
39.  I love to be the hostess.
40.  I hate gardening.
41.  I love driving.
42.  I love going places I have never been but it scares the pants off of me.
43.  I love the night sky.
44.  If I could be any animal in the world, I would be a big bird, (eagle or pelican)... kind of funny from a girl that can't handle heights.  
45.  When I have dreams about flying, it scares me.  

Friday, November 28, 2008

Call Waiting

I called You up to hear your voice.
I wanted to listen to the things You had to say.
I needed to talk to You, 
to let You know what was going on in my life.
I was happy about getting You on the line.
As soon as I had established contact with You,
another call came through and I put You on hold.

When I got You back on the line,
You were there, waiting patiently
and wanting to share with me too-
but, as soon as we started to talk, 
there was a beep, 
and I put You on hold again.

This time, I couldn't break from the other call.
When I was done, I didn't expect you to still be there for me
But You were
waiting patiently.

I was feeling guilty about making you wait.
I was ready to vow that I wouldn't let anything get in the way of us
ever again.
But the next thing I knew, the line beeped once again.
I struggled, and debated, what should I do
but I couldn't let it pass,
I chose the other line
I put you on hold again.

Finally, I returned,
and You welcomed me back with words of comfort.
I apologized and You gave me Your forgiveness,
and with that, You told me...
You loved me
and that You would wait for me
forever.

OH my LORD,
What have I done?
How have I forsaken You and yet
 You hung on the line
and waited until
I was ready to listen to Your voice.

God is good, and He is faithful, and it seems some things never change, it is always a struggle to give God my full attention!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

The Work Place


I have been blessed by staying at the same school for the past 6 years.  It hasn't been easy to stay, in fact, it is only by the grace of God... I think Satan has tried to get me out, but God keeps bringing me back.  
I have often wondered (especially, when it looks like I will have to move on), "have I completed the work that God has for me there."  And every year, it is clear... the answer is, "No."
Since I have been there, I have had the blessing to share the hope of Jesus with a coworker, who prayed to receive Him.  Currently, I have been sharing with another about what it means to have a relationship with Jesus rather than just being a part of a religion.  
There is yet another coworker, who is in what could be called, spiritual confussion.  She isn't sure, who God is, and even if He really exists... And if that isn't opportunity, I don't know what is.  
I would love your prayers, that as I interact with these lost sheep, that God gives me opportunities, wisdom and the words to say each time the opportunity arises.  

The Good Wife


Have you ever noticed how God does what He wants to do... whether or not you are ready or willing?  
I love my husband, I love being married, but I don't always love being a wife.  I often wonder, why is that the wife is the one that has to do the changing, make the sacrifices, and lead in compromising.  
To be completely honest, I don't like it!  My flesh doesn't strive to be the one to change, but my spirit feels the tugging of God everytime I work against it.  I can hear the Lord speaking into my ear and telling me to do do the right thing.  
Last year, for my bday, I received a couple of books from a friend about marriage, I put them on the bedside table with my Bible, with every intention of cracking them open and trying my best to become a better wife.  But truthfully, it just hasn't happened.  And isn't it funny that I notice them all the more when I am angry with my husband, and then am even more reluctant to read them.  
But here's the kicker:  I haven't cracked a book, but despite my best efforts to dismiss the idea of being "a good wife," God is teaching me the lessons anyway.  I hate it when that happens!  How you might be asking?  At work, where of course it is much more painful.  Without getting into the painful details, and without of coming to my own defense, I will just say that God is teaching me about compromise, sacrifice, keeping my mouth shut, being my own defender, and a myriad of other things that pride drives me to do.  And all this change, comes through various trials.  HMMM.... I think I have heard that before.  
Consider it all joy?!!!  Humph.... 
Why can't it come another way.... 
Yes, consider it all joy.  Cuz today, I am a better wife than I was yesterday.  And tomorrow, I will be a better wife than I am today.  I have my good days, and my bad days, but I am moving slowly forward.  And I look forward to the day, when my Heavenly Husband, stands before me and says, "Good and Faithful you have been, enter into your rest."  
(Then will He pamper me the way I deserve?  just kidding!?)  
And just so you know, my husband, is a good one.  And despite the fact that I can be a spoiled princess, he loves me anyway.  

Monday, November 17, 2008

Being Thankful


I was reading Tammy's blog and I liked her idea of listing reasons for Thanksgiving.

I am not the most faithful of bloggers- I find it hard to find the time.... so I am going to list my 30 reasons (one for each day of November).

1. I am thankful that Jesus chose me, that He loves me, that He is a faithful God and that no matter what- I am in His hands... safe and secure for eternity.

2. I am thankful that some day, I will be face to face with My Savior, My Lord, and My Friend.

3. I am thankful for my husband. He is my love and my friend.

4. I am thankful for my family. It isn't always easy, but they love me.

5. I am thankful for my friends. I have many faithful friends that near or far, are there for me.

6. I am especially thankful for those that are both, friends and family.

7. I am thankful for my "niece and nephews." They are connected to my heart even though we don't share the same "blood line." Aaron, Hannah, and Josh- I love you all.

8. I am thankful for my home. I love my little house and I love that I live in Orange County, and am exceptionally glad that it is still standing.

9. I am thankful for my job. I love teaching. It is who I am. I don't know what I would do if I couldn't teach.

10. I am thankful for my experiences. For better or worse, they have been a part of God's shaping me into His daughter.

11. I am thankful for my car. It gets me where I need to go and doesn't break the bank every time I have to fill it up.

12. I am thankful for the things that I have learned in life: to cook, to read, to write, to paint, to draw... just wish I had learned how to clean!

13. I am thankful for my students. Not just those in my class this year, but those that have touched my life in the last 10 years I have been teaching!

14. I am thankful for my memories... because I sure don't remember things the way I used to.

15. Speaking of memories, I am thankful for my diet coke -even if it is breaking down my memories.

16. I am thankful for my churches, and my pastors. Past and present. I have been amazingly blessed to sit before some great teaching. In 40ish years of attending church I have only had 2 that I called my home... and they were both the best!

17. I am thankful for the Christian colleagues that God has placed in my path in the many years that I have been employed- starting with my first job when I was 16.

18. I am thankful for the way that God meets our needs. It isn't always the way we want, but it is always the way we need!

19. I am thankful for the opportunities that God has given me to be in ministry. Working in the Women' s studies under Sandra, working in the Children's ministry under Julie, and working (so long ago) in the youth ministry under Terry. I have learned many invaluable lessons that I carry with me.

20. Though I miss outside ministry, I am thankful for my current ministry- serving my husband. It is the place that God has me, and I can accept it with gladness.

21. I am thankful that it will be cold again soon.

22. Though I live with a longing in my heart to be in Heaven with my Heavenly Husband, I am thankful for my life.

23. I am thankful for the many women that have been my teachers, mentors, leaders, and examples. I appreciate the time and effort that they have poured into my life. I feel like the most blessed woman to have sat below, with, and along-side these women. Mrs. Brostrom, Gigi, Robin, Mindy, Jean L., My cousin Debi, Ann Boyett, Peggy, Sandra, and Julie are just some of the women that were ministry leaders for me and that taught me so much about God's love and living to please Him.

24. I am thankful for the many forms of communication that we have to keep in touch with those we love.

25. I am thankful for the opportunities that God has given me, especially as I look at the lives of my students, who all recieve free lunches, whose families share houses and apartments with multiple families, whose parents work two jobs, whose families have to hide from immigration, who can't afford to go on family vacations, who have never eaten at a "fancy" restaurant, gone to the beach, gone to the movies, or gone to Disneyland. Who live in gang infested neighborhoods where they see and experience things I wouldn't have even been able to imagine when I was there age...

26. I am thankful for the gift of time.

27. I am thankful for my "old" high school friends that I haven't seen in a long time. Who walked with me when I was a new Christian. Who taught me what real Christianity looked like and sounded like. I am thankful for the laughs that we shared and for the smiles that come to my face even right now as I remember the great times.

28. I am thankful for Ron Pixler... it was at his prompting that I start studying the Bible. It was his challenge that started my love affair with God's Word.

29. Which reminds me, I am thankful for the Word of God... the light to my path!

30. I am thankful to be a wife- most of the time. I am thankful for my many friends that were married before me, and that taught me what it meant to be a wife.

31. I am thankful once again for the fact that Jesus will never leave me, nor forstake me, and that even though I am many times faithless... He is always faithful.


OKay, so I went over 30...

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Building a Better Home









Osmel and Liver have worked hard this summer to do some improvements around the house.  We added a canvas/rod iron gazebo to the back patio to make it a new outdoor dining area.  We mounted the TV over the fireplace and they framed it out.  Step two is to put shelving units on both sides of the fireplace.  I'm so proud of all the hard work they have done.  

Karen's Inner Photographer










Here is a sampling of some of my "artsy" photos.  
My goal is to get some of these framed for the house.  

Sea Life











Here is a sampling of some of the wild life we encountered.  In Shell Beach there is this great big rock that is covered with pelicans.  A bird that is actually one of my favorites.  It looks like that prehistoric bird that I can't spell (Pterydactyl?).  We saw some seals (or are they sea lions- which one has the external ears?) lounging under the pier in Avila Beach.  Plus of course, sea gulls which are such stately birds.  

The End of Summer






The last hurrah of the summer was to take a small trip with my little man!  We did a condensed version of my trip with my mom over the Labor Day weekend.  We really had a great time!  It was good to get away.  We hadn't been on a trip together in over a year- not even a little weekend get away.  We walked a lot!  Which of course is always good for the body.  We both took our cameras so we competed to find the best shots.  I took a lot of artsy photos because I'm looking to take some of the the photos and use them as decor for the house.  We started our long weekend in Santa Barbara.  We hit a lot of traffic on the way up (as we expected) so we figured it was better to spend that first night someplace a little closer.  On Saturday morning we had breakfast at this cute little downtown Bistro where we sat outside.  It was still fairly early, so there weren't many people and it really was a lovely way to start the weekend.  We walked along downtown for a couple of hours and then made our way to Santa Maria.  Lovely weather!  And again, it was a beautiful area to visit.  We spent some time in downtown San Luis Obispo, Shell Beach, and Avila Beach.  Then we had dinner in Pismo.  We ate dinner one night at the Far Western Tavern in Guadalupe.  This place has a lot of memories.  As a little girl, my maternal granfather lived in Lompoc and used to take us to the Far Western for Sunday Breakfast every time we visited.  We created new memories to go along with the old ones.  The drive home was nice, not too much traffic.  We even stopped in Camarrillo to visit the outlet mall there.  My husband LOVES to shop- and he had to visit the Nike Factory to buy yet another pair (or two) of footwear!  It was hard to come home, but we returned refreshed and regenerated, and we had grown in our appreciation of each other and our marriage.  

Trip to Arizona






Another blessing this summer was to take a few (but precious) days to visit the Millage family in Arizona.  I got to be there for Hannah's birthday and share some great times.  It was good to visit Calvary Chapel Surprise and to see all those that have migrated to AZ.  I really enjoyed sharing time with my precious loved ones.  Hannah and Josh were the driving factor to my trip (sorry Tammy and Brian you are number 2) and I had a blast with them.  Josh just makes me laugh- he's quite the character.  Hannah, is so smart and talented.  There was a birthday party for Hannah's 8th bday (where does the time go?) where I got to see the Jones family, the Chill family and Julie and Sophie; I also had a chance to meet some new folks from CC Surprise.  It was nice too to sneak in some time with Todd and Julie and Sophie.  Another blessing was to drive home with Jessica.  She is a wonderful young lady and we had a really nice time sharing the drive.  

Vacation With Mom
















This summer, my mom and I had an opportunity to take a vacation together.  It is something we hadn't done since I was a little girl.  We had a great time.  We stayed two nights in San Luis Obispo and two nights in Santa Maria.  We visited downtown San Luis Obispo and the mission, Pismo and Avila Beaches, several Santa Maria vineyards, and Los Olivos.  We shopped, ate in some mighty fine resaurants, wine tasted, shopped some more, sight see-ed (it can be sight saw can it?), and had a really nice and relaxing time.  We even went to a really fun performance called The Great American Melodrama in Oceano-  that was a real treat! The scenery and weather were all beautiful and overall, I have to say an excellent time was had by all!

The Newest Members of our Family



This summer someone was walking by the house and found one of these little guys walking in our yard.  They assumed it was ours, caught it, and brought it to the door.  We knew it wasn't our neighbors because earlier in the day, they were trying to catch him.  When we asked them, if it was theirs, they said, "No, we are just trying to catch it."  So we decided to keep him.  We researched the bird and found that it was a lovebird.  The internet suggested that they be kept in pairs, because they are very social.  We found a local pet shop that had some just like our new little guy, and we brought home a female to keep our male company.  All this happened during the Olympics, so we decided to name the kids Bei and Jing.  We have made their home on our newly "remodeled" patio and they seem quite content.  Not the pet I had in mind, and not the kids Osmel was hoping for either.  When the guy brought the first one to the door he left with a "God bless you,"  and we decided, this is a little gift from God.  The purpose is yet to be determined.  They cutest part about them, is that they were cuddling from the first few minutes that they came home.  They seemed to make an instant connection.  Kind of reminds me of my husband and me- knowing from the beginning that we were meant to be together.  

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Are You Still Married?


I recently ran into someone that I hadn't seen in awhile. One of the first questions that came out of her mouth was, "Are you still married?" The next one, "Are you still happy?"
About a year ago, Osmel had to get a physical as part of the hiring process for a new job. When the doctor came in, he asked Osmel how he was doing, asked about his life, asked about his wife... and it became increasingly obvious that this man knew us. Osmel didn't remember meeting him, so he asked him, "Do you know me?" It turned out, the man went to the same church we attend. He was somewhat new to the congregation, and he told Osmel that though he had never met us, he knew of us. Someone had not long prior to that day, shared our story with him... so our story was fresh in his mind. When Osmel came back to the car, he related the story of what had just happened, and we were reminded again- People are watching us.
Osmel and I realized a long time ago, that we are a testimony. A testimony of God's timing and we are living, breathing proof, that His plans for us are good. We try to keep it the front of our mind. We feel a sense of responsibility knowing that our lives are on display.

Before we were married, when our story was just unfolding before us, and as God was bringing us together, I realized that I had an arranged marriage. It was an arrangement made by my Father, and by Osmel's Father. That is, our Heavenly Father. It was an arrangement that was meant to benefit all. It was arranged because of love- Our Father's love for us. We understand that not everyone gets it. We don't always get it either. And I'm not saying that our life is without problems, or without fights, or without unhappiness. We go through the ringer just like all couples. The good times are good, the hard times are hard, but God's faithfulness to us during the prewedding times, gave us something not all couples get- assurance. We knew 100% (and still do) that this was God's perfect will for our life. That He wanted us together. And what God wants, God gets!

Friday, June 20, 2008

The Loss of a Friend



Many Christians don't really get death, they don't see it as a gain- they see it as a loss and they don't look forward to it. Others take on the attitude, I want to go to heaven after ___. Not yet, not until I have experienced all that I desire. But me, I look forward to the day I get to stand before my Savior; and I hopefully will hear Him call me His good and faithful servant. A dear friend of mine recently went home to be with the Lord. It was sudden and unexpected, and it left me with a feeling that I can't explain. A sense that I'm missing something... but I can't quite put my finger on it.
As I sat in the memorial service, I started to remember all the things that were special about this wonderful, wonderful lady. The ways that she blessed my life, that she may not have even been aware of. As people shared, it brought to mind so many things I had shared with her. I was overcome. Not for her, for me, for those of us that will miss her smiling face. And during the sevice, I wrote her a letter and I cried.
The truth is, I lose friends all the time. People move away. Changes in life bring distance. New jobs. New churches. New plans. New ministries. People come and go. And though they are gone, they are never forgotten. There are many who have gone whom I miss very much. We can't always help it when we lose a friend. But when you can help it... don't!

Responsible Blogging


I journal regularly, and I have off and on since I was about 16. I find that it is useful in so many ways. My journal is a source of meditation. I can read a passage of scripture, then think about it and meditate upon it through my writing. Journaling is also a way to pray focused prayers. I can write letters to God to tell Him about my deepest feelings, sharing my praises and my prayer requests with Him in a clear, and focused manner. Journaling can also be a way to store memories; writing about how I feel and the things that I have done and experienced. Finally, my journal can be a safe place to vent. A place that I can write about the frustrations and tribulations of everyday life. I can go and verbally vomit in my journal and it helps to flush away all those negative feelings.
I know that many people see blogging as an online journal, and with that, they feel freedom to express whatever they want because it is their personal and private space. But it isn't. Especially if people you know are reading your blog.
We need to be careful about what we say in cyberspace.
As I am writing, I am thinking about the people that will read this blog and I chuckle to myself because you all know it... but I see this sight as practice for writing "The Book." So sorry if I get a little preachy :)